Why I Don't Do Resolutions!
I was laying in bed December 30th trying to think about what my resolutions for 2015 should be. As I lay there getting distracted by other, more interesting, thoughts; I realize I just don't do resolutions. I never have and I tried and I hated them all.
You see, growing up at some point I swore off making promises. I knew God was the only being that kept every promise and I never wanted to make a promise. Ever. A human cannot guarantee the future, so why do we attempt?
Ok, so now that I have grown up (I guess I'm grown up?) I don't have the same "why do we even attempt" view. We cannot sit back and say "well, I can't control everything so, whatever." Then for sure, nothing would get done. You seal your own fate. But I still do NOT make promises. I think my vows to my husband are my only promises and they are to do my best to love my husband as God loves us. It's not a promise, technically, because I did not say I will ALWAYS love him perfectly. Because I won't. I don't want to break a promise because a promise is a VERY strong word/verb/thing/whatever.
So, instead of making a promise (resolution) to do something in a year, I am going to write down all the wonderful things about this year and the things worth remembering. Big or small. And I will make vows to try my best to do things I want to do more. Not promises that I will do them this much or else.
The list of wonderful things is a new thing for me to do because I just found my quote binder my older sister, Amy, made my little sister, Mom, and I for Christmas in 2007. I had been looking for this book for a few years but more recently I cried because I had really been searching for it and tore our house apart and it was nowhere. January 2nd I found it in a pile of my husband's things at his parents in Colorado. I must have brought it there years ago when we were dating. I was SO happy when I found it. I just cannot express my joy.
At the front of this binder of quotes is a letter made to me from Amy. This letter is from her when she was in college and I was in High School, we each got one at the front of our binders. She writes that almost every quote helped her through a hard time, is connected to a memory, or are feelings she once felt. She tells me about how much she loves me and how deeply I love and feel things. To protect myself from those in the world and 'find people on your level'. She ends with telling me to make a "Happy Book" at the front of the binder with a list of everything that makes/made me smile each year and date it. She says to "Look back and remember that in year 2007 you liked purple shoelaces" and to read my "Happy Book" when I am sad and it will make me happy.
Clearly, this book is AWESOME and even more clear is that I LOVE and CHERISH this book like crazy. It's so important to me.
So, a few things I am adding to my happy book this year!
I said 'stahp' way too much
I was a girl that said 'can't even' a lot too!
I started saying 'anywho' again. I used to say it all the time a few years ago.
I explored a small city on foot by myself for the first time. SO exciting.
I fell more in love with Trey
I said 'noted' a lot when I was told notable info and it sorta became one of my things.
I started wearing more of the color black.
I fell in LOVE with leather and couture gowns (small problem, I can't afford couture)
I played around with more 'fun' makeup. like blue eye shadow, bright eye shadows, and crazy liners.
I shopped at Goodwill and got AMAZING clothes for way less expensive. Hello, awesome!
My city got an H&M and Forever21, finally!
I fell more in love with my city and was more passionate about making it even more lovable and beautiful.
I started saying inanimate objects live places. Like, this house in my city has a historically old Oak Tree and I would say 'That's where the historic oak lives.'. Even though it's not a person.
I am a pretty sarcastic person. This year when someone insulted me while joking, I would joke back with "you have no Jesus!". It was pretty much hysterical. If that offends you, then you aren't sarcastic and I can't make you think it's funny and silly.
My vow's to myself and my husband for the New Year, which are really just ongoing vows that I will keep forever. Can ya tell I'm not a big fan of resolutions?
Learn to de-stress at home and rely on God more for rest so when I go on trips I don't bawl from relief.
Grow in my relationship with the Lord.
Stop and enjoy the moments more. The moments that 'interrupt' my busy day and the ones that are just moments I pass by because I don't have 'time'.
Let Trey know how important he is to me and how I appreciate and love him dearly more!
Learn as much as I can and read for FUN!!
Both of these lists have WAY more that could be added to both of them but I kept it to the most fun and important ones so you weren't reading for days. Ha!